THINGS IN MEMORY ARE VERY DIFFERENT FROM FACT.SOMETIMES,IT MAKE ME SIMLE,BUT AFTER THE SIMLE IN SHORT TIME ,I WANT CRY,I KNOW ,THAT WAS THE PAST IN MY LIFE ,NEVER COME BACK.MAYBE THIS IS A PROSESS THAT THE PERSON'S GROWING,

 

SO, I CAN'T  HAVE ANY POWER TO STOP IT.I JUST STAND ALONG TO SEE ,SEEING  THE TIME IS FLYING ,SEEING SOMEBODY AND SOMETHING ARE CHANGED A LOT .SEEING MY HEART GETING  MORE AND MORE TIRED.SEEING MYSELF GETING OLD AND OLD.YES......I HAVE NOTHING TO DO ,JUST WAIT AND WATCH.

 

MAYBE ,WHEN I WACTH THE WONDERFUL PLACE, I CAN GIVE A CHEER TO MESELF.

 

SOMEBODY,  LAUGHED  WITH ME, IN THAT TIME ,I THOUGHT THE FRIENDSHIP & LOVE WILL FOREVER,BUT IN FACT THERE IS A BIG CHANGE BETWEEN US.MAY IN MYSELF.SO ,I WILL SAY SORRY TO THAT PERSON.

 

SOMETHING, THAT WAS VERY VERY BAD FOR ME ,I KNEW I CAN'T DEAL WITH IT ,BUT I NEVER GAVE UP!!FOREVER!!I AM WAITING ONE DAY,IN SUNSHINE.I BELIEVE THAT  CERTAINLY.

 

I DON'T KNOW HOW ABOUT THE FUTURE .

YES ,I DON'T KNOW ,BECAUSE I AM NOT GOD,

SO ,PLEASE, DO NOT SWEAR TO ME.

I NEVER TRUST THE WORD,BUT TRUST THE HEAD,

 

                                 "Spend all your time waiting for that second chance
              For the break that will make it OKay
                                     There's  always some reason to feel not good enough
            And it's hard at the end of the day
                         I need some distraction or a beautiful release
    Memories seep from my veins
                       Let me be empty and weightless and maybe
                                     I'll find some peace tonight.................................."

who will be an angel in my life

and

where is the one i will  be an angel in his life

 

just 

     let it be,

                  i know

                         someone

                                     cares me

                                                   in heaven

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

cry on my shoulder(靠着我的肩膀)

if the hero never comes to you 如果你的真命天子仍未来到
if you need someone you"re feeling blue如果你情绪低落需要有人陪伴
if you"re away from love and you"re alone如果你离爱遥远，孑然一人
if you call your friends and nobody"s home如果你打电话给朋友却没有一人在家
you can run away but you can"t hide你可以逃开却不可以隐藏
through a storm and through a lonely night经历了风暴忍受了孤独
then i show you there"s a destiny我要让你知道每人都有他的命运
the best things in life一生中最美的事
they"re free那就是自由
but if you wanna cry如果你想哭
cry on my shoulder靠着我的肩膀
if you need someone who cares for you如果你需要关怀你的人
if you"re feeling sad your heart gets colder如果你感到悲伤心渐渐变冷
yes i show you what real love can do我会让你知道真爱的力量
if your sky is grey oh let me know如果你的天空灰沉沉的，哦，要告诉我
there"s a place in heaven where we"ll go天堂总有一块我们要投奔的乐土
if heaven is a million years away如果天堂离我们有百万年远
oh just call me and i make your day哦，只要来个电话　让我与你相约
when the nights are getting cold and blue当夜变冷变深
when the days are getting hard for you当日子变得艰难
i will always stay here by your side我会一直陪在你身边
i promise you i"ll never hide我向你承诺，我不会躲藏
but if you wanna cry如果你想哭
cry on my shoulder靠着我的肩膀
if you need someone who cares for you如果你需要关怀你的人
if you"re feeling sad your heart gets colder如果你感到悲伤心渐渐变冷
yes i show you what real love can do我会让你知道真爱的力量
but if you wanna cry如果你想哭
cry on my shoulder靠着我的肩膀
if you need someone who cares for you如果你需要关怀你的人
if you"re feeling sad your heart gets colder如果你感到悲伤心渐渐变冷
yes i show you what real love can do我会让你知道真爱的力量
what real love can do真爱的力量
what love can do爱的力量

我只有一件事,就是忘记背后,努力面前的,向着标杆直跑.

                                                      ______绯立比书3:13

 

......

 

我的高中,是我现在已经经历的年岁中,最美好的一段时光...我爱我的高中,我爱我在高中时代经历的所有所有.
(一):
穿校服,挤公车,站在公车上,心里还惦记着没有做完的作业一会是否有时间去"借鉴借鉴",也就站看公车上,不段的向外张望,看那一群群穿着绿色校服的单车一族中是否有我的同学,好朋友......我经常迟到......

现在,所有的校服我已经扔了,可每次出去转街,看到那些穿着高中校服的学生,我都好羡慕他们,我突然发现我失去了一个时期的色彩,一个时期自己的情感.现在也经常挤公车,但随着汽车的前进后退而前后晃动时,我没有心情在去看看窗外,更多的,我有些无赖了......

(二):
每天走进学校,走进教室看到一张张熟悉的脸,自己也都会微笑起来,看到大家桌上,都放着早餐,书,等者借鉴的作业,突然间觉得温暖.

然后上课,很多的笔记.最紧张的时候就是老师要提问请人回答.最搞笑的时候,就是老师讲话讲错.经常上课睡觉,经常上课传纸条,经常上课说话,经常不按老师说的做,经常快乐,经常高兴......

现在呢,刚到大学的时候,经常回忆高中的课堂,好多时候,多希望在大学的教室中,能出现一张高中那熟悉的面容,大一一年,我也很努力的记笔记,听课,但我一直都知道,高中的感觉,我在也没有了......大学,高中,大学,高中......

(三)
高中,学校比较小,没有食堂,每天都出去到街上的各种小餐馆吃.一下早上的课,和一群好朋友,边走边说.似乎中午一点点的时间,大家要把一早上没有说完的都说给对方说.也就这段时间,通过说,通过吃,把偶尔遇到的郁闷和不开心,全部释放出来.吃过饭,慢慢走回学校,有的睡觉,有的看书.教室中午就会变的很安静

财大的七食堂,经世楼,寝室......

(四)
高中的晚自习,是最香的时候.上了一天的课,有些累了.半个小时的时间,很多人都出去找点吃的.菠萝包,咖啡,乐来的米线和粉,教室就会香的不得了.有时候课间吃不完,上课的时候趁着老师不注意,还会吃上一口.晚自习结束,很多同学就约着一起走,而这段时间是我最喜欢最放松的时间.一个人,不用赶时间,公车上也就有几个人,找一个自己喜欢的座位,看从窗子外很快划过的路灯和树,就这样,放松自己.也感觉到真正的生活,真正的自己......

财大.经世楼 C座或者是F座我喜欢坐在最后一排,抱好多书去,放着那,然后发呆,等到十点,在抱着书回去.经世楼到寝室,一条路,冬天,就看不到几个人,特别冷.冷到我牙齿打颤......真的好冷.....


再见,我的高中.....我知道,我已经不配在有高中的任何感觉了.....

.......

好喜欢回忆,上面是我大一写的日记,现在,我还是这样对我的高中回忆着,但,回忆的人却完全不一样了,是的,是我改变了,而且,变的好大,好多,所以,我现在害怕回头.

 

这样一个我,懦弱的我,连自己的回忆都不敢回头真真的看,我又怎么忘记我背后的东西.没有看清楚的东西,我怎么去忘记.我只有背着它们,与我一起,走......

 

 

 

 

 

 

a friend loves at all times,

and kinsfolk are born to share adversity.

                                        ________Bible proverbs 17:17

maybe yes maybe no, in this holiday, i almost stay at home all time,sometimes, i will do some sport,but only by myself.i know ,some of my friends may think it different from normal ,even think there are los of change in friendship.

 

this days, chengdu are in sunshine.it is nice.i think heaven, sunshine, smile, famliy,love,work and trust friends are highlight in my life.and those are very very important thing in my world.

 

but now, there are so many problems. i need a way.though my world in black,but i still believe my god will help me.he will make a way when i feel no way.so ,i keep waiting.i don't want go anywhere,just waiting and waiting ~~

 

so ,this days, i want a silent room ,just me.

 

sorry to my friends, i need you ,but also, i need a room ,just me .